I told her that I think it would be cool if at some point we could get into a relationship even though we live 2.5 hours away. In hind sight, the relationship part might have been a little much but I was told by multiple people to just let her know my feelings. One person even said she'd like my confidence, but heh doesn't seem like it worked out too well. I'm not extremely saddened by it, but a little bit disheartened and I guess kinda confused but it's like whatever, not much I could do.

Today I went to the Ontario University Fair which was good to get something else in my head and it was nice talking to all the other people, see all the people. Then I saw a few friends who moved schools, both of them's in relationships now, and it occured to me that while it seems like this girl didn't work out there's no reason for me to feel horrible about it, that kinda helped.

Then at one point I kinda didn't know what do to and my lack of morning coffee hit me, I felt tired and I just wanted to go home, and shortly after I started thinking about that girl. The streetcar ride back certainly wasn't the nicest thing. I decided to go get coffee since there was a Tim's nearby before I got on to the streetcar and just went with it. I was listening to some music and at one point I stood up and Kickstart My Heart by Motley Crue came on and the coffee kicked. Fucking got me hyped as shit and just thought "lets go dude". Now I'm at home writing this, going to do some homework, feeling motivated from the fair somehow. Life ain't fantastic but I'm grateful for the things I do have, and I'm not planning on taking any bit of it for granted.

I don't even know why I'm posting this here but I just needed to get it out of my system, thanks for reading. Hope you're day is going to be fantastic, or was fantastic. Hell I hope your whole life is fantastic. If you do need to talk about something feel free to pm me, helping others makes me feel good.

Yea I guess that's all I wanted to say.