I am a woman in turmoil About six years ago when I was 35, me and my then husband was separated but we were trying to get things back together again. We had four children ranging in age from 16 to 7 years of age.

Long story short, I had an affair while me and my husband were separated at the time were trying to get back together. It may not sound so bad except that the guy I had sex with was only 16 years old. He was a friend of my son.

One day he came by when the kids were visiting their dad at his place for the weekend, I was thinking he must have thought they were home with me but, come to find out later that he knew they were gone.

When I told him they were gone for the weekend he actually asked if he could come in and ask me about something and I said sure. He was always very personable and talkative. He told me he had a crush on an older girl but didn't know how to approach her and asked me what he should do. I just said tell her that you have feelings for her, although you may get rejected and it doesn't feel good but, get it out in the open and see what happens.

That's when he told me I was one he liked and I was floored. I of course told him that nothing could happen between us for obvious reasons, him being a minor the biggest reason. However, something about this young boy was intriguing to me. maybe just the attention that someone so young would be interested in an older woman like me.

Anyway, he said he understood why something could not happen but, he did want to let me know his feelings. I can not believe I was truly flattered by this. Again, him being a somewhat bold fella, he actually asked me if he could kiss me and of course I said no, that would not be a good idea but, he actually persisted and I reluctantly gave in and let him kiss me. We kissed, and for whatever reason it felt good to me.

He asked if we could do it again and, against my better judgment, I said yes and we kissed and we held it. Then that led to fondling each other and I allowed him to take one of my breasts out of my bra and suckle it. I then went into lust mode when I reached into his pants and felt his rather large penis. That's when I realized that this young 16-year-old was built like a man and was ready for sex. I went into lust mode and I remember standing up and taking him by the hand to my bedroom where we undressed each other and climbed into bed.

He wanted to enter me right away, but I stopped him and showed him what I liked and had him give me oral first before I allowed him inside of me. When he did mount me I had to guide his eager penis into my entrance and then instructed him to push inside of me. He surprised me by lasting for about a minute before he came inside of me (we weren't using condoms). We relaxed a bit before I let him do it again. We had sex four times that afternoon and the last time was the most satisfying since it took him about 20 minutes of deep thrusting for him to come inside of me, which allowed me to orgasm with him inside of me. Hew as very pleased with that accomplishment.

After we were finished that time I really started panicking and told him he could never tell anyone what just happened and of course he said he would not but, when can you trust a boy so young to keep a secret about having sex with an older woman, especially around the neighborhood.

For whatever reason I could not stop thinking about him though as crazy as that sounds. Anyway, 3 weeks had went by and it had not got out and another opportunity presented itself and he asked if we could have sex again. I guess I felt I could trust him so we had sex again. We had sex maybe quite a few more time in the next 2 months before I came to my senses and ended it.

Soon afterwards I reconciled with my husband but I couldn't stop thinking about the young man even when I was having sex with my husband I thought of him. It was at this point that my husband and I decided to try for a baby. That had been the cause of our separation as I wanted one last baby and he didn't. But he agreed so I stopped taking birth control and we began having baby making sex. At this point I was finally able to get the boy out of my head.

Four months into having baby making sex with my husband the 16-year-old just turned 17 and I saw him at the store when he told me the news of his birthday. Seeing him brought back all sorts of memories of our time in bed together and I have to admit I missed it as he was turning into a decent sort of lover. I ended up giving him a birthday present of sex (just one more time I promised myself) at my home since my husband was gone to work and the kids were at their grandparent's home out of town. I counted the days and thought I was far enough away from ovulation so he wouldn't get me pregnant. My husband had planned to be home when I ovulated in a few days. So, I let him come inside of me as I always did, and in fact was able to make 3 separate releases inside of me that afternoon.

Afterwards, I took a shower to clean self off, but I wasn't expecting sex from my husband that night since he was saving himself for baby making sex when I ovulated a few days later.

Well, we had sex during ovulation, which came two days later and I ended up pregnant.

But now I question whether or not the son I gave birth to is the young man's or my husband's. It turns out that sperm can live several days inside the woman before ovulation. What made me question whether or not my husband is the father is that we were trying for 4 months and nothing, and then I had sex (and lots of it) in an afternoon where I was filled with quality sperm by a young man and I ended up pregnant. Could it be his.

My boy is 5 years old and I suspect the 17-year-old is the father, but he is close enough in appearance to my husband so he doesn't suspect anything. I wanted to tell someone of what happened and so I'm telling you all now.