We've been together almost 14 months. The best 14 months if my short almost 20 year existence. I love you to death, and I've never fallen as hard as I have for anyone else ever before. But I'm scared. I'm scared you're too good for me. I think about all the times I've hurt you, whether big or small. I never meant to, I hope you know that, and I truly am sorry for everything wrong I've done. But everyday I think that it could be the last, I think that maybe you'll just back your bags while I'm at work and I'll never hear from you again. Or you'll wake up one day and not love me anymore. I'm so scared. You've tried to go before, and I know you always came back, but what if the next time you don't? What if you simply don't love me as much as you say, or you meet some guy that knocks your socks off and you just leave me in the dust? I hope that never happens but that doesn't mean I'm not terrified. You tell me all the time how much you love me too, and how you want the same things I do. And I believe you, but I'm hesitant. You made it look so easy to leave before, even over little things. I know we're engaged and I'm so excited for what the future will bring with that. We always talk about the future we want and the things that make it up. It makes me happier than you'll ever know. But what if you realize that the mistakes I've made are too much for you? Or one day I start to feel depressed like I did before and you can't handle it? What if you meet someone who makes you so happy that you realize you don't need me? I know we're young, and that never bothered me, and frankly society can kick my ass if they think we're too young for what we want. But what if you realize there's more to life out there? I'm terrified. I love you.