I've been struggling with an eating disorder for a while and one of my "strategies" or whatever you want to call them is to watch asmr videos. I isolated myself from my friends for a while because of my depression, so at lunch I would "eat" through watching videos of others eat on my laptop. It's really fucked up, but it makes me feel better when i see others eat and I don't have to.

So now that I'm not isolating myself i don't have time to "eat" during lunch. I can't watch videos like that during class either because I would feel like a creep if someone saw my screen. It seems like a silly thing to be complaining about, since its a bogas coping method, but i had to get that off my chest (see what I did there)

anyone else do this or am I the only weirdo that does?