Long story short, I suffered (still do but not as much) from a terrible case of social anxiety that rendered me incapable of leaving the house for a year and a half. Towards the end of my days as a shut-in, I had strongly convinced myself that I HAD to do something about this issue of mine or it'll just spiral downwards until there's no way out.

During that I time, I decided to start attending a coding bootcamp, and I was excited to start my life again from scratch. I had lost contact with nearly everyone I used to talk to in the year and a half I've been out of the scene, so it truly did feel like I was starting on a blank slate. I was excited to conquer my social anxiety and make new friends again.

Unfortunately, after a couple of months, I haven't been able to make any "friends". Sure, I talk to people (rather, they come up to me and talk to me because I'm kind of too timid to go up to people - but just being able to talk to people at all is a big improvement for me), but I can't see anyone here as a friend. Only a couple of people share the same hobbies as me, but it isn't even in the same way. Because I was alone at home for a year and a half, the way I enjoy these hobbies is very different from the way these few people do, so it's not even in the zone of *sharing* in the "same" hobbies, as we have very different perspectives on the matter.

I'm just so disappointed that I'm still so lonely, even after coming all the way out here.