I have had a rough year or so, getting out of a bad relationship that was emotionally and somewhat more in ways looking back. It has been around 6 months since I moved out. I didn't think I would ever be strong enough to leave but I worked with a therapist and with support from my wonderful friends and family I did it. It was so rough in the beginning because I still had very strong feelings for him and a strong urge to be near him though I knew it was not healthy. I cried nearly every day for months and months. I feel certain that I made the right decision and that it would never work out, that I did everything in my power to try. I finally gave up mentally beating myself up I guess just about month ago. I still have bad days, but not nearly as many. I have taken the time being single to think about what I want out of a relationship and what I did wrong and right. He didn't want kids, and I was never sure though I wanted to foster. I am certain now that if I met the right partner that I do want them. I am already 30 and fear by the time I meet someone it might be too late. I don't feel attracted to many people, like maybe 1 person every few years. I try not to worry. I was also laid off from my job so I have more free time but am trying to stay busy. I start school for a two year program in August and am looking forward to it. It's very hard for me not to worry. I think it is a blessing that I learned from my failed marriage, because I know now what I want and dont want out of a partner, but I am afraid I won't meet anyone that I feel a connection with again.