As someone who struggles to know whether I'm the problem and fears they're constantly missing social cues, this shit drives me further and further into self-doubt. I see it all the time - people who say "just be yourself, fuck negativity, etc." only say it if they like you, assume you're like them, or agree with you. If you aren't like them, those same people will tell you that if someone says you're annoying or whatever, then maybe you ARE the problem.

I don't hate the people who say these things, because ultimately I think that's something everyone does. We're all hypocrites in our own ways. But what I do hate is that all that talk does is make me wonder if I'm the character in people's lives that needs to change but doesn't, if I'm the inside joke in other people's lives.

A healthy person wouldn't care, but I do. What if I'm no better than the people I look down on? People keep telling me that I'm paranoid and then someone else tells me that I'm a worm and that I've got not right to look down on anyone. And I agree with them.

This is all incoherent but I don't care anymore.