My husband and I have both had a hard year personally/professionally, and it’s taken a toll on our marriage. For our seventh anniversary we decided to spend a night in a hotel, go to a spa, and spend some time relaxing and getting to know each other again.

Before I get into details, I should clarify I have always identified as straight but will admit that I’m maybe a bit bi-curious? I have never really experimented, but do enjoy lesbian porn from time-to-time both with my husband and alone. Also I never had gotten a massage before because until recently. I was really weird about being touched—mostly because of self-consciousness about my body.

So now we’re at the Couples Massage. The massage therapist who worked on me was very attractive. She and I were joking around, and she made a little comment or two about us having fun today, while giving us a tour before. I’ll call her Alice. She then introduced us to the other masseuse who worked on my husband, and after the tour we disrobed and got on the tables etc.

She asked if there were any areas I wanted her to avoid or anything to focus on and I just got so nervous and awkward. Then she started. Everything was fine when the sheets were on. I had kept my panties on but took off my bra. She spent a lot of time getting me relaxed and working with the sheet on. But once she took the sheet off she pulled my panties down a bit and...I was instantly wet? For the rest of the massage all I could think about was how much I was trying not to be turned on and both how much I was enjoying her hands on me.

It was worse when she had me turn over. Alice kept leaning over me, and her hair was brushing my arms, and she would adjust the sheet so I could feel it slipping where I felt like my breasts were coming out—at the same time she was whispering in my ear to take deep breaths like a sexy ASMR video—hold them in, and let them out. Then when she put a washcloth over my eyes and started massaging my thighs I was like “oh shit did we accidentally book an erotic couples massage, and omg I want this to happen omg omg.”

So yeah. When it ended with nothing being touched inappropriately I was really disappointed. But we tipped well.