My whole life, the bottles been my only friend, due to my own choice and desire. I didn’t even want a girlfriend. Sure, I’d go out once in a while, but all I ever wanted to do was move out to the bush and drink like a fish, play some RDR and live completely alone out in the middle of nowhere, having a quiet fire alone every night till the day of my death. — But after a year of hell, and losing my virginity last year at the age of 28, I’ve been in increasing torment. I’m terrified of the same thing happening again. But this girl, I love her. She’s my everything. I’VE NEVER loved, related and cared for somebody SO much. I wouldn’t even be on social media if it wasn’t for this past year of hell. But I wouldn’t change it for the world, because if my heart wasn’t shattered and I was fucked over, I’d not have met the sweetest, most beautiful person. I love you, Brooke. I don’t change. I hate change. You know I love you, and I know you love me. Love knows no bounds. I have eyes for you and no other. You have my heart. I thought I felt true love before? Hell no. This is true love. I adore you, Brooke, and for you? I’d do anything. I shit you not, I’m so dizzy, tired, and haven’t eaten in three days, feel sick, insanely dehydrated due to self neglect, but I’m sitting here thinking about my whole universe. The prettiest girl ever, my future wife and honestly? As mentally exhausted and tired I am, I can still think about the best moment of the day, the love of my life’s beautiful smile. I make you happy? Oh,
My dear, you may me happy. I love you so much. I hate all I posted. That’s all revolting and I’m disgusted with that douchey stuff I posted too, your mom is right about that part, but I love you forever, and nobody, and I mean NOBODY, NOT EVEN GOD himself is going to lay a hand on you. I’ll cover you in forehead kisses like the sweet deserving girl you are who deserves nothing but affection and love which the very idea fills me with immense joy. I love you, forever.