I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Growing up my parents were pretty strict. Maybe and 8/10 (10/10 being the most strict). They have always supported me financially and haven't been abusive towards me

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My childhood home was extremely boring. If my parents were home, they were usually hanging out separately or doing chores. They never showed each other affection, and made a point to never fight in front of me. If they spoke to me it was to tell me to do chores, or yell at me for not doing chores

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They took no interest in me or my activities, never told me they loved me, and never really acted like they even liked me. When I think about my parents, I feel nothing. I have no emotional bond for them. When I came home from college for the first time after not seeing them for months, the car ride home was total silence. No effort to even ask how I was doing. I think they may have asked me how my grades were

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I remember trying to get out of my house as much as possible as a kid. I remember feeling like I was losing my mind with boredom at my house. If I was there, I was in my room watching TV, outside playing sports, or on the computer by myself. If I shared an accomplishment with my parents in a game, or tried to show them a cool shot I could make, they would have no reaction and make me feel stupid for thinking it was cool. I felt I had a much stronger bond with my friends and their families. A friend of mine's Dad (who had a close bond with his son) even asked me (about my dad) "Do you guys even talk to each other?" And the way he said it, sounded like how can a father-son relationship even be like that

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I almost feel bad for being resentful. They always provided for me and even let me stay at the house for a year after they moved to a condo in order to let me save money. I know they came from big families with 6 siblings, so they don't understand what it's like to feel alone at home. My dad is totally closed off emotionally, and thinks discipline is the only way to be a good parent.

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But at the same time, I feel no connection to them at all