Im sitting here trying to push out the memories of an incident that happened 10 years ago.. i was a senior in high school.. homecoming queen.. voted most beautiful in my class but top athlete.. anyway i was a good girl, i didnt hang out with the party crowd i didn't drink/do drugs, i was nice to everyone i was also very shy and never really had any boyfriends. The end of senior year i started dating someone and i really liked him vise/versa, we went to prom together and were at an after party were everyone was drinking.. i had maybe three jack and cokes but that was all it took for me to get hammered. My date said he had to go because he had curfew and I drunkenly told him i wanted to stay and would find a reliable ride home. He left.. I ended up asking one of my guy friends whom i thought was trustworthy; we had been friends for years and that was it nothing more. It starts getting spotty the later it gets and the last thing I remember is laying down in the back of his truck throwing up then passing out again then i was awakened again with the sight of him on top of me INSIDE of me. I was helpless I couldn't morve or even speak i just kept passing in and out. He pulled up at my house and i just remember running inside as fast as i could and i never spoke of it again. Monday morning at school rolls around and im receiving looks and glares like i had a scarlet letter on my chest. The guy had already been telling people that we "hooked up" i suppose ... which i knew was completely false.. i was taken advantage of.. i never would have voluntarily had sex with him. But i was so mortified about what had happened that i never said a word i just ignored all the rumors. I didn't really know what to say or how to even bring it up to anyone. Word eventually got around to the guy i was seeing and he randomly broke up with me for no reason, i was so upset but i still never told him what actually happened. I was so young and didnt know how to handle it. FAST FORWARD to present day... ive pushed this memory as far back into my head as possible but ive recently been seeing my ex from high school at the gym after not seeing him in 10 years. We both awkwardly say hello but thats it but you can tell we both have more to say.. i kind of want to tell him what really happened that night because ive grown so much since then and im finally ready to talk about it but then i also know that it would be extremely awkward to tell him something so deep after ten years.. im conflicted on what to do and ive actually never told anyone this story before i thought writing everything out may help get it off my chest so that's exactly what im doing.. please ignore all of my grammar errors.