She was sick but I didn't think she was doing that bad. I guess I figured she would go home like she always does. She lives a half hour away and I didn't even go to her house nearly as much as I could have. I have a lot going on in my life, a 3 yr old daughter with behavioral issues, my other grandmother I live with and care for bc she has dementia, I'm in recovery, but none of that is an excuse. She died and I didn't even make her feel like she was important to me I don't think. She knew I loved her and I saw her every few month but I should have been there weekly. I feel like crap and I should.