yeah so. he called me and was calling me a sl** and that i wanted it and deserved it (being r**ped) because i was wearing shorts and was in a guy’s room (this was a year before we met). the guy is in class with both me and my ex and i’ve confided in my ex before about my pain around what happened and how it really fucked me up. my ex never believe me and forced me to record myself telling my mom about it or else he would break up with me before. and then after he believed me and was really comforting about it but now he’s being awful about it and i don’t understand like yeah i get he’s upset that he lost it to me and i technically didn’t loose it to him but he knows i wish it wasn’t like that he was truly my first love and he meant everything to me and what happened to me really really fucked me up and now for the one person i actually loved to say this hurts.. oh and just yesterday he was calling me and telling me how much he loves me and how pretty i am to go from that to this .. makes sense oh and i guess he would secretly record our convos esp our arguments so he could show me in the future and, in his own words, wanted to make me feel bad for it. yeah idk i really loved him but what the fuck