He's admitted to me before that he has at least 2 other children from women he was with before my mother, and that he essentially abandoned both of them. Like i'm happy he stuck around and did his best for my family (even if he did hit me) but i'm always thinking of the kids and women he just left behind without any support. It makes me sick to know I have brothers who've been so mistreated. To be abandoned by the person who brought you into the world. The same person who told me I was his favorite person in the world. He made me feel safe and protected as a young child and he made them feel unwanted. Unloved.

How can he walk around like he's a fine person when he's a piece of shit... I wish I could confront him. But he just wants a normal relationship. He wants to deny it.