So in a previous post a few months ago, I spoke about my co-worker, (we called him Sam in the last post), who is arrogant, unhelpful, and lazy. A fucking jerk overall. We are cordial to eachother because we work side by side, but I can't stand him.
For the last couple of weeks, he has been calling out a lot. And even when he is there, he's been more quiet and distant than usual. I haven't been phased by it. I'm usually the type to sense when someone is going through a rough time and I always emphasize, but not with him.
This week, he hasn't showed up to work at all, leaving me with a lot of mess to clean, he makes a lot of mistakes and since we are a "team", I am there to pick up the pieces. My manager informed me that something is wrong with him, but legally, he can not give me the details (which I really don't care).
I feel bad, but NOT for him. I feel bad because it's not like me to be heartless. It's not like me to not care that someone is dealing with a sickness/mental illness/death in the family or whatever it is that he is going through. I actually hope he DOESNT come back to work. I feel like shit saying it outloud, but when I think of how hard he has made it for me for the last year and how much he probably wouldnt give a shit if it were me in his shoes, I truly don't give a shit about him. I know it sounds horrible, but that's my confession.