i was abused growing up. emotional, physical, and verbal abuse mainly. i feel ashamed because i feel like i've gone through so much, nothing should phase me. people telling me i'm not worth anything to them shouldn't make me want to cry but it does. people yelling at me and making me feel bad shouldn't make me feel bad because i went through exactly that growing up but i still get so scared when it happens. even people speaking authoritatively at me without them being an active threat toward me makes me scared and i feel panic attacks come on.

i feel like i should've gotten over it but i haven't and it's so stupid. i'm so sensitive when i shouldn't be. it makes me feel fake, as though the awful things i went through aren't bad enough because i still get my feelings hurt and i still get so emotional when people are awful to me.