I was sexually abused when I was small. I have mental issues and I went to therapy a year or more ago and they said I had some stuff like anxiety and ptsd and they have me meds but I stopped taking them and stopped going to therapy because I felt vulnerable talking to a stranger about me.

This has affected my school work and I’m about to graduate and I’m so disappointed in my grades because if I had the energy to do more and do better then I’d have better grades but everything is so discouraging and my brain sucks for constantly thinking of things I don’t want.

I have finals coming up and I’m freaking out because I’ve missed classes again and I say I won’t every year but it’s the same stuff.

I just want to have a stable job already and a stable house and a stable life and have everything planned and set and to know it’s gonna be ok. But I’m lazy and sad and disappointed.

My parents think I’m doing great and since I’m their first kid going to college I feel like all the pressure is on me to succeed.

I know I’ll be ok because I have to but I could have been more. I am graduating but I don’t know if my grades will even get me a job.