my friends and sisters have been having some personal issues lately, and i tend to be their lifeline. i probably spend about an hour to an hour and a half on the phone every day, talking to all of them and giving advice. i don't mind this, at all. i like giving advice and i like being there for them. but i've been feeling like crap lately, and i feel like nobody has really asked how i'm doing in a really long time.

i don't know why i can't just be happy. it sucks, i'm in the prime of my life and i just feel so bored. and it's not like i'm doing things that are actively boring. i travelled alone internationally this month, i've been taking really interesting classes at school, i see my friends all the time, and i'm always looking for new ways to get out of my comfort zone. i don't know why i feel this way. i really don't.

it's really hard that nobody is checking in. i feel like the world is spinning around me and i can't keep up, but i don't want to stop. i like helping my friends and family with their problems, and i don't feel like it's a burden, but maybe it's draining me more than i would want to admit. maybe i'm being selfish in my expectations, because i'm not really sure if i would even want to talk about it if given the chance.