I just want to get this off my chest and be honest for once.

After high school I didn't have a job or any aspiration of graduating college. I did not have any friends and would cold shoulder anyone that offered to hang out with me. I sat on my computer everyday and played world of warcraft for 16+ hours a day everyday for a year straight.

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At the end of the next school year when the grade under me would be graduation I've became extremely depressed about my life and what i've turned into. I would look at myself in the mirror and laugh with how ashamed I am of myself. Not long after I planned to hang myself, I purchased rope from the local hardware store and practiced how to tie a noose for hours on end. A week later I attempted to hang myself in my bedroom. I did not fall far enough and ended up suffocating and feeling a horrible pain. I woke up in a ambulance on my way to the hospital where I stayed for weeks talking to a therapist.

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I've never told anyone that I attempted to hang myself besides my ex girlfriend and current therapist, I don't plan on ever sharing this moment again in the future. I don't want sympathy or compassion for sharing a experience about a failed suicide attempt.


I feel guilty that I've lied to everyone about what i've done with my life, I just said I went to college and was the top of my class when in reality I was depressed and played world of warcraft everyday in my parents house.