I’m not into hookup culture so being a sex addict has been weird for me. I’m literally constantly thinking about it, I see people on the street or they come into my work and I imagine having sex with them. I know that’s not healthy, but I’m not a creep and don’t come on to people really. I just go about my day like everyone else. People are generally pretty surprised if I confide my sexual tendencies with them.

I’ve been extremely depressed for a long time and in a relationship with someone who just refused to touch me. I felt so ugly all the time, worthless. I felt like no one wanted me. There’s a lot more to the relationship then just not touching me but I really fell into an extremely dark place.

Since breaking up, I’ve been sleeping around a bit. Not hooking up necessarily but I’ve found FWB people, people who talk to me and chat with me who I also have sex with, and it’s been * so fun*. I have 2 already, and might be about to gain 2 more. It’s really fun going hanging out with them because I can be myself and have fun and not worry about anything. They know I’m hyper sexual and they *like* that, but not just because it means I’ll have sex with them. They LIKE ME! It’s such a foreign feeling being appreciate for just being myself.

I’m going out with someone tonight to a board game cafe, and he’s aware I’m looking for FWB, but he has literally no idea how extremely kinky I am. I am so excited to be able to tell him all about myself and my addiction because it’s something I OWN now, I’m not afraid of it.

I just feel free for the first time in so long.