I've been harassing someone (lightly) without knowing it until just yesterday.
I broke up with my ex over two years ago, we hung out a while after the breakup. But then she stopped talking to me. Was it something I did? I don't know because she will not tell me. She IS kind of a dramatic person.
I haven't been texting her like every month or anything. A couple times a year she crosses my mind and I started to get bothered by the fact that I may have hurt her to cause her to not talk to me anymore.
So I try ask her or our mutual friends (who I'm pretty sure aren't my friends anymore due to this whole issue and because they won't talk to me either, idk wtf my ex told them) why she won't talk to me so I can amend the situation and/or apologize.
And I know a couple times a year is too many times, I don't need anyone to tell me that, because I now know. I should've texted her once, and after not getting an answer, left it at that. But my stupid worrying mind won't let it go.
I asked my (former I guess) friend the other day "why isn't she talking to me?" And my ex used her as a proxy to tell me to stop trying to contact her and that she didn't owe me an explaination, and then my ex friend said to stop asking her about her because "it's weird and your persistence is starting to really bother me".
So I told them I wouldn't talk to either of them anymore. Done and done.
I know I probably look like an obsessed asshole here, but I was just trying to amend, fix things, get closure, apologize etc. Still I may be an asshole.
I should've just left it alone, but I didn't.
And idk what the fuck my ex told my friends but they won't respond to me. But I never really did anything that bad, I mean I'm most certainly not perfect, but I treated her well during the whole relationship, whatever I did, she must be exaggerating or lying even to look like a victim or something (I hope not).
I've thought about this a lot and I've remembered only one thing that she could be mad at me for. And one thing that may or may not have happened, I just don't remember if it did or not, so it probably didn't happen.
Regardless, I'm gonna completely leave her and those friends alone now. Message received. I wish I just would've left it alone. I mean of course I would've most preferred that she tell me what it was that I did wrong so I could apologize, that's not what happened though.
TL;DR
My ex won't talk to me idk why, may have turned my friends against me, I tried to amend the situation way too much, and now I'm stuck feeling like shit and I hate myself.
Posted May 28, 2019 11:20 by anonymous
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