First off, there is absolutely nothing wrong with my home life other than myself. I treat my brothers and parents with all the love and respect i’m capable of and I feel like I don’t get it back. I grew up in a nice environment with very little arguing and my school life was the same. I was/am always acting fine in public and around other people because i can’t bring myself to tell them how I feel about myself. This all started 8ish years ago when my grandfather passed and i’ve just been masking all of the emotions I have since. The rare occasion I talk about my possible depression the people I tell it to dismiss it saying “oh that happens to everyone” or “just give it time”. I’ve been giving it time and i’m sick of doing it. I hate myself and everything about me. I have no idea why I feel this way and probably never will, but it does not seem to be ending anytime soon. I haven’t liked what I saw in the mirror in years, does anyone have any advice?