I’ve been accidentally celibate for a year and a half - I don’t know how it started and I don’t know how to stop it.
About two years ago I moved to a new city. At first I made an effort to be adventurous and meet new people, but naturally tending towards introversion, that phase was short lived. I’ve made some friends and do have a social life on the weekends, but recently realized (literally I hadn’t even noticed and it hit me like a ton of bricks!) that Ive had zero sexual intimacy pretty much since I moved. From what I’ve witnessed, the dating scene here is heavy with one night stands, which I don’t exactly thrive in bc I prefer to get to know people before being sexual. I went on a few dates right at the start, but they didn’t go well, and afterwards decided to focus solely on making good friends instead. Flash forward two years and here I am, a sexless spinster and haven’t even kissed a guy for almost a year (Im 24 and a girl). My friends have no idea because last night a guy was hitting on me and they asked why I wasn’t into it - in all honesty, I freaked out and felt so nervous at the potential of being intimate with someone after this unintended dry spell that I just shut it down and continued to hang with my friends. It’s not like I was a sex maniac before (only really had a few LT boyfriends, and enough one night stands to know that I didn’t like them) - but I guess I shocked myself with how long it’s been and I hadn’t even realized? Now am in my head about it, and don’t feel like I can talk to any of my friends because I feel like they might think it’s strange/immature - I am seriously nervous that I might not remember how to get back on the horse - figuratively and literally.
Posted Apr 20, 2019 14:14 by anonymous
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