I shouldn’t have opened my damn mouth I’ve been keeping my emotions to myself and i was on the verge of exploding so I just need to get some things off my chest (pun intended) and I felt that it would be safest for me to talk to my mom since she deals with my mental health issues in our everyday life and I don’t really like opening up to friends about the extend of how much mental mostly self inflicted torture I’m in.

So i start talking to her about the things going on in my mind I express how trapped I feel, this lconstant inescapable helplessness about what’s troubling me and she just got angrier and angrier as I kept talking, i get that what I’m feeling doesn’t make sense to her or most people and I know she’s trying to help but she doesn’t know how, I told her that the way she’s speaking isn’t helping and only makes things worse and I guess she felt guilty and lashed out at me.

Anyway long story short I feel very alone and i took a chance and tried to ask for help and now I feel even more alone and hopeless than before