***Note:*** *I am not asking for any form of financial assistance per rule 3. Just venting\**

Covid hit me hard. I had a great job making 60k as a retail buyer, a nice apartment, and saving money towards a house. Paid my bills in full every month, splurged a little here and there but nothing too crazy. The biggest indulgence was a weeks vacation with my then girlfriend.

Fast forward to today. My job went away with covid since no one was buying anything or going anywhere. I've been living off of my credit cards and savings, downgraded to a smaller apartment, sadly lost the gf, and I'm barely scraping by.

Every time I go to the grocery, I always leave without paying for as much as I think I can get away with. Today it was laundry detergent and toilet paper. I always put the items I plan on stealing on the bottom of my cart, always go at the busiest times, and always go to self checkout. I've been doing this for over a year now and so far, I have gotten away with it every time.

I feel like shit about it though. I never used to be like this, I was the girl who always followed the rules and was too scared to do anything that might get me in trouble. Now I think to myself, "Fuck it"

How did it get this way?