I’m a M 16 y/o going into my junior year of high school, and I’ve been single since the beginning of my 8th grade year. That was my first and so far only real relationship and it lasted 3 months.

Throughout my sophomore year I ended up having a few crushes, and I got rejected by each and every one. The last one as a matter of fact had a crush on one of my best friends and only really gave me a little “sorry”. I just don’t know how to feel anymore.

I want nothing more than to just be with someone. I don’t want anything sexual, but I just want to feel like I’m not alone. I want to know someone actually loves me like that, and I want to love them too. I want to go on dates, go to the movies, call and text them all night, and overall be with them.

For a long time I feel like I’ve been lying to myself, trying to list off the benefits of being single or reminding myself I don’t need to be in a relationship to be happy. But it bothers me all the time. I want nothing more than to be in a relationship where both of our feelings are reciprocated. I’m tired of being a third wheel and I’m tired of being rejected.

But at this point I’ve lost hope. I don’t know a single person from my school that would like me and I’ve lost just about all confidence I’ve had. I just wish I was in love.