im so tired of being miserable even though my brain is the one responsible for this whole mess. i (20f) am a romantic at heart. I want to love and be loved and fall in love but im so so terrified of rejection that i never pull any shit. i have alot of friends i love dearly but its not the same. whenever i catch feelings for a new unlucky fuck, i convince myself that thwy are a terrible person till i lose feeling for them. im surrounded by relationships that seem perfect but actually are really fucked and im so scared of turning out like that. its easy to have fuckbuddies. fuckbuddies cant let you down on an emotional level, but im starting to catch feelings for one. and im so so scared of being hurt. help.