They're really awesome, smart, social and have tons of friends since they moved away. I'm kind of a hermit, a little ill in the head and don't have any friends apart from them. I've stayed in my home town so we dont get to see eachother often. We talk daily but I'm worried it won't stay that way for much longer.

They have so much more fun when I'm not there, since I'm not too spontaneous and don't go to things like parties. My idea of fun is video games, going to a museum or for food. They're like my polar opposite and the interests that we shared at our closest have started to change now too.

I know childhood friends rarely last long, but I'd still like to stay close a little longer and I can't help but feel bittersweet when I see them.

I love them a lot and am glad they're having a ton of fun, they're finally discovering themselves and it's amazing to see how far they've come. They'd be miserable if they stayed like me, but sometimes I remember how we used to be sad little losers together.

I don't want to tell anyone else this, just yelling it into the void.