I'm scared I'm scared I'm very scared. School started again in like 4 days which means I have to be worried about assignments and grades. Because I need good ones to do what I want to in the future. But what if I don't like it anymore when I'm older, I can't change it once I start. What if I'm not successful in that field. What if I don't earn money. What if what if what if what if. Why do we have to decide what we what to do now, why are career paths so rigid. I'm scared so scared, I can't sleep, whyyyyyyyyy. Why can't I magically sort this out once I turn 18 or some shit. Life... you suck ass. Like why whyyyyyyy. I don't want to be here, shaking in my bed at 12am every night, not being able to fall asleep until 2, watching tiktok videos until I can forget about it. I hate this.

Ps. This was just raw thoughts typed out, sorry if it's a mess, I just needed to vent.