I haven’t had a crush in years. Then oops. Feelings. Didn’t even recognize them until, I don’t know, an entire year into this whole…thing? I feel like such an idiot for all the times I would tell mutual friends “Oh I’m worried he’s working too hard” or “Wow I’m really angry on his behalf” despite us not having a close relationship whatsoever. Truly a fool am I.

He’s cool. And smart. And funny. And really cute and has this sense of ambition and vision that I like to see in people because it shows how passionate they are. Aaaaand despite him being single I know that there is no possibility of anything happening so I would like to move on thank you very much. It’s pretty dumb to draw conclusions but I just know (plus we’re of different orientations so you know, that). I’d like to be regular old friends with him but my brain just kicks into overdrive and makes talking to him all but impossible. Like, oh my god I actually come off as super disinterested and blandly hostile.

Just let me move on from this in peace please. I literally hate this so much and it’s such a waste of time and I’m being like, super rude to him unintentionally and it’s driving me nuts. Begone!