I’m just very very lonely I’ve no close friends to rely on or to vent to in real life, and I’m just done with life cause it looks like no matter how hard I try I never get what I want no matter how much effort I put in I always end up disappointed.

Especially romantically, when I finally think I might’ve found someone who is genuinely into me they turn around and go for someone else. I’m just so done with being everyone’s second option or that girl they see as an ego boost. I just don’t understand how is it that when I finally think I found someone who likes me it turns out they’re into someone else. I don’t get how there’s no one out there who is genuinely into me. I’m trying to look inwards and work on my self esteem and not go in with an expectation but there’s nothing worse than someone getting your hopes up only to crush them cause those weren’t their true intentions.

I’m nearly 26 and I think all my life I wanted to know what it’s like to be in love but I’m just done with love and romance I genuinely believe it’s not meant for me, it’s meant for anyone else other than me. So from now on I won’t look at anyone romantically at all and I’m just gonna forget about anything to do with that as hard and frustrating as it is seeing other people getting together and experiencing it.