This one is a doosey, so hold on tight 'cause here we go.

I was in a relationship with my ex (John) for 7 years. One of the reasons we started dating was because his friend (Mark) was the one who said to him "yo this girl is into you, do something!". For the last few years, most of the time when John and I would get into an argument or a fight, Mark would come and help us through it. Either he would comfort me, or talk some sense into John, he was a good friend to both of us. It always felt to me like I was a little sister to him and he would help us out because he wanted the best for John and I. I would always be there for Mark, through various break ups of his own, because that's what friends do.

Last year around September, John and I broke up for about 2 months. Mark started being really caring for me; surprised me with flowers to cheer me up, came to see me on my lunch at work so I wasn't alone and sad. One day we were at a mutual friend's house and I drank too much so Mark offered to drive me home. Long story short, he confessed his feelings that he's been in love with me for the last few years. We kissed, and that started a roller coaster. John and I got back together shortly afterwards.

Mark has a girlfriend, who is now 5ish months pregnant. He's been with her for 2 years, and is absolutely miserable. He told me last September that he was going to break up with her to be with me, but they had just signed a house together so timing wasn't convenient. He helped me and John get back together, since he felt bad.

So, John and I broke up (again) about 4 months ago. The first couple months, Mark and I were spending as much time together as we could (while avoiding his gf). She recently stopped working cause of the pregnancy. Now we are lucky to even chat on the phone once a week.

Mark is trying to get me and John back together. He feels like a dick for seemingly leading me on, breaking it off, rinse repeat. He figures, I guess, that if I'm distracted with John again, that he can sort his shit out and gimme a call when he's ready/out of that relationship. I love John and hope things work out with him, but realistically, Mark and I have such better chemistry when we are together. He's like the yin to my yang, whereas I was always kinda forcing John and I, things flow effortlessly with Mark.

And Mark's ex, the "one that got away", is my closest girl friend. She doesn't know about any of this. Neither does anyone else. Except now you guys.

What the fuck eh?