It's to the point where I genuinely can barely make my own fucking decisions. I need to be told what to do because I am so fucking scared of fucking up. I can't assume, I need to be told. Yeah sure I have my assumptions but I only think it in my head and never outwardly express it because I'm scared I'll be wrong. I stress out over what I say before I send it. I'm scared I'll say something wrong and the person I'm talking to will get upset with me. I constantly stress out over whether or not I'm bothering someone. I just constantly stress out over practically everything. I can barely do anything without a strong sense of stress and anxiety. I need to be told shit. I'm not like genuinely stupid or anything, I'm just constantly terrified I'll be wrong about something. I say I'm dense n whatnot and say shit like "Oh yeah hahaha I can't tell if I'm being flirted with or not lmao" no I can, I just hate assuming that's what they're actually doing. I mean I am actually pretty dense because I quite literally cannot actually tell if someone genuinely likes me, but yk, shh. I'll assume it in my head if I think so but I'll never ask to make sure. But anyways, Even if I KNOW I'm right about something, I'm still worried I'm secretly wrong and I just don't know it and my whole life has been a lie. So, if I do say something, I usually end it with "Right?" or "I think, idk" Just so the other person knows I'm not completely sure and will nicely correct me or something if I am actually wrong. But even when that happens I'm genuinely terrified. It's so fucking stupid. I hate constantly stressing out over shit like this. I hate the fact I NEED confirmation. I hate the fact I genuinely cannot make my own fucking decisions and I need help. I need the help and it's so fucking stupid. I know I'm a kid and don't know everything, but I'm literally in fucking high school and I need help with every little fucking thing. I can't do anything about it. Only time when I'm significantly less stressed out is when I listen to music. But I need to do something while listening to music otherwise I get bored blah blah blah.

I know I don't have anything diagnosed n stuff, but I'm pretty sure I at least have some form of anxiety, or maybe just general anxiety. Also probably have bpd and bipolar disorder but that's unimportant

I'm too scared to talk about it because what if I'm wrong? I don't know I just hate this shit it's so annoying and dhfdskfkh. I'd talk to my therapist about this but idk I go to trauma therapy idk what relevance or anything this shit has to that.