I was raped and never told my husband. I got pregnant from the rape, and my husband thought it was his and wanted to keep it, but I aborted it and he was devastated. He still has never forgiven me, and I have never told him I was raped.
Posted Oct 28, 2018 17:41 by anonymous
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In the 2nd year of our marriage, I got raped. Brutally. I was out with my friends at a bar and a guy grabbed me into an alleyway, then into a car. He had a knife against my back and kept saying he was gonna stab me. He had this weird face covering thing, I couldn't see his face well, but he had sunglasses and a baseball cap. They brought me into the car. There was another guy in there, guy with huge sunglasses and a baseball cap as well. They were clearly trying to cover their face. I was crying and wanted to scream but I remembered the guy had a knife. They forced me to suck the guy off. Then they brought me to some empty car lot and brought me outside and took my clothes off and took pictures. I was still crying. Then they raped me. It wasn't quick. It lasted for hours. They would rape me, then the other would rape me, then they would wait a bit, maybe smoke a tiny bit, then go back and rape me again. Then they left. And they said they would kill me if I told anyone, and that they have my picture. I didn't fight back, so they didn't physically beat me or anything. All I had were some bruises from when I fell, and blood from the penetration. I was stuck in the middle of fucking nowhere, with like 25 missed calls from my friends who were at the bar.
I obviously shouldn't even need to express how horrible it was, how traumatic. This isn't my confession, my confession is that I never told my husband. Ever.
I was so horribly ashamed of what happened, and so devastated and horrified and embarrassed. I knew it would absolutely destroy my husband to find out what happened to me, so I decided to never tell him. I told him I fell and that was the bruises were. It wasn't only about protecting him from knowing the truth, it was also that he would absolutely demand we go to the cops. I did not want to go the cops. They had my picture. They were likely organized criminals, I didn't want to risk anything with those types. There were certain things which didn't add up in my story, like where the hell I was for 4-5 hours while my friends thought they lost me... but he never asked more. He just believed me.
Then I got pregnant. I didn't want him to find out, I just wanted to get rid of it as soon as possible. We had been using condoms, so there was no chance it was him. We also hadn't had sex at all since the incident. Not necessarily because of the incident, but he had a huge cast on his knee so we had been sort of not having sex a lot regardless. The last time we had had sex was 3 days before the rape.
Except, he found the pregnancy test. And I had to tell him that I was getting an abortion. I nearly had an emotional breakdown. I couldn't tell him I was raped, so he thought it was his baby. I just couldn't deal with it. I just told him, over and over, I can't have this baby. Then I got the abortion. And he just looked horribly sad and depressed.
We got over it. Its been 13 years and now we have 2 kids. But to this day, he thinks it was his baby, and he has no idea I was raped. That was the worst time of my life. The rape was horrific, but the abortion and knowing that my husband thought it was his baby... and the desperation in his face when he couldn't get an answer as to why I was aborting his kid, trying to find answers and me just bottling up and not giving answers to him.... that was horrible. That was the worst time of my life.
He has brought it up before. In arguments we have had. He knows there was something behind why I aborted the baby, but he never knew why, and me keeping the secret from him has always haunted him.
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Commented May 8, 2019 18:04 by anonymous
You are a dumb-ass if this truly happened to you. First to all the, I am who I am and I will do and go where i want women and girls. You can't, buddy system bitches. Men are weird, they are bad and evil they want to fuck your cunts..... So why you were in that situation... mistake. Why you went out with out your hubby to a bar? mistake. Not reporting the men that fucked you, Mistake. Not telling your husband... Mistake
Makes be feel sad for humanity. Why don't women know their place?
Commented May 29, 2019 03:16 by anonymous
I have seen an abortion done, and it's brutal to the woman and her child. They open your cunt with a speculum, then grab your cervix with tongs that pierce it like an ice pick--I'm not making this up. Then they open it up with rods by inserting bigger and bigger rods into your cervix. The sides of the cervix split a little and weep blood from this part. When your cervix is open, they shove in the tube and suck out your baby and the lining of your uterus. it looks like it hurts like hell and that stretching and piercing has to do some permanent damage. I hope you feel it every day for the rest of your life.
Commented Jun 5, 2019 16:21 by anonymous
You could have avoided all of this if you were honest with him. You should have just told him. It was not your fault
Commented Jul 1, 2019 15:50 by anonymous
Come clean, you willingly fucked those guys and got knocked up. It's the only way it makes any sense to not tell him
Commented Jul 12, 2019 19:47 by anonymous
Tell him you twat. He's your husband. Even if he doesn't agree with the actions at least life will make sense again. You can't hide forever.
Commented Jul 22, 2019 15:19 by anonymous
LOL! Bruises from falling? Raped for hours? If your friends knew and called "25 times", how did you end up outside with a "guy with something covering his face"? Who escorted you out, without your friends seeing-and how did the guy come in with a mask on, and get you outside without anyone noticing?
Nice try, slut. You fucked a guy you just me, your friends covered for you, and you got knocked up-THAT'S why you had an abortion. Funny-your friends don't seem to care too much.
Total FUCKING BULLSHIT
Commented Aug 2, 2019 05:34 by anonymous
Lovely for married women to hang out at bars! What is with that?? Spend time with your families! This is the end result. And you destroyed your husband in any case by having the abortion.
Commented Sep 29, 2019 10:54 by anonymous
Tell him you were raped and couldn't bear to remember it or continue the pregnancy. Tell nothing more.
If you believe that could ease your soul, do it.
Commented Sep 29, 2019 10:58 by anonymous
And now it gets you so wet when you think about the rape. It's normal;)
Commented Sep 29, 2019 13:01 by anonymous
This 100% never happened. You are a horrible person for making up such a horrible lie. Do you know how triggering your post will be for ACTUAL rape victims? Or women who REALLY DID conceive rape babies. You are a selfish attention whore who is making shit up at the emotional expense of others. You are the most disgusting and selfish kind of troll. Sad, desperate and needy with nobody to actually care about you so you must troll the internet for any attention you can get.
Commented Oct 11, 2019 05:07 by anonymous
Some things are just not fixable. I believe that there are no good solutions here. In general, you had the right to not tell anyone that you were raped. But when you told your husband that you were aborting his baby, then he probably felt very violated and you crossed a line that you should not have crossed. There's no way to put that back together.
If you had told him about the rape in the first place, your relationship would probably have survived, or if not, it would probably have been over within a short period of time and each of you could have moved on with your lives. Instead, both of you has been in this weird limbo state for a long time. You had no control about being raped, but you had total control about your actions that you described here. If you tell him about it now, he might forgive you, but he probably won't be able to get past it because he will then have to deal with the rape and with your lies.
The guys who raped you are totally responsible for the harm that they caused you, but that does not excuse your behavior toward your husband. You are totally responsible for your behavior towards your husband. I encourage you to seek out counselling. This is a heavy burden to carry.
Commented Oct 23, 2019 03:25 by anonymous
I feel sorry for what you went through, but I also understand why your husband will never forgive you
if you cannot tell your husband the truth, your marriage is over anyway
involving the law is always a bad idea, they rarely get what they deserve, and there is always worries about another attack
just find them and put a bullet in their head
Commented Nov 5, 2019 20:46 by anonymous
Stop acting like I whimpering child and let him know.
Commented Nov 5, 2019 21:06 by anonymous
Your story emboldens rapists to continue to do what they do. You kept it a secret, which is what they wanted. But more important (to them) is it allowed them to keep raping more victims to this day.
Commented Nov 19, 2019 21:06 by anonymous
“Are you hot? Are you rape material? ”
Mr President, don't you have a country to run?
Commented Jun 4, 2020 00:06 by anonymous
When I first read this I thought at first it was my wife writing it as the same thing happened to her. A rape, kept secret, followed by a pregnancy and a mysterious abortion that seriously threatened our marriage. The difference is she was being pursued by my “best friend” (now dead) who’d wanted to fuck her for a long time and took advantage of me being distracted by being in professional school. He gave her an ear to listen to her feelings of being ignored until he got her where he wanted her. It’s a long story but to cut to the chase. Tell him the truth. Will he be upset? Yes. Will he resent the years of lying? Yes. But he will also understand that you didn’t abort his first conceived child. This lie is a burden you need to put down and he deserves to know what really happened to you. He will always wonder what role you played in getting yourself into that situation, just as I do. But the truth, though painful, did set us both free. We don’t talk about what happened and she has never openly admitted it (she was one of several women he targeted and I know one of the others. She and others have said enough for me to have a pretty clear idea of what happened. He slapped her to force her submission, than fucked her in every hole she had, to punish her for not giving herself to him. He was a psychologist and knew how badly he was damaging her, and I am a medical person who can read the story in her psychological scars.) but the truth answered some nagging questions and our marriage survived. Accept the fact that confessing will get you to a better place, whether or not your marriage survives. Your secret is killing you both. The truth does set you free. Tell him, but make sure he hears that you love him and lied to save your relationship with him and your marriage. My suspicion is he has never stopped thinking about the abortion. As your husband this was a big mysterious part of his life that never set right. Tell him the truth. You both deserve a better situation than you are living in now. BTW, ignore the haters. I believe you and I believe your husband will too. Good luck.
Commented Jun 17, 2020 03:12 by anonymous
hey man, i'm sorry for all the negative comments. i doubt you check this anymore since it's been almost 2 years, but i hope you did tell him. that open communication is the way. i hope you have a happy life. i'm sorry for what happened to you. i cried a bunch reading this. please be happy and i wish you all the best.
Commented Jun 17, 2020 03:31 by anonymous
You should have told your husband at the time. There was no good reason not to. Telling him now would be an equally bad thing because of the years of pain caused by your lies. And just so you know, you're also responsible for every rape those guys did in those years after your attack, because you didn't report them. You are complicit in all those crimes because you did nothing to assist in the capture of those criminals.
Commented Aug 3, 2020 15:42 by anonymous
I would tell you to let it go, but this seems to be haunting you and it does not seem like you will eventually let it go. The damage it´s done, but you could put your mind at ease if you confess. What you should´ve would´ve, could´ve it´s no longer an option, all there´s left is today and the future. It´s easy for us to judge, but we were never in your shoes, so disreggard the negative coments. I am so very sorry for what happened to you, but if you were my wife, I would like to know. I would probably be enraged and curse you for a little while, but then I would hold you tight and ask you to forgive me. I wish you the best.
Commented Dec 31, 2020 03:31 by anonymous
so you got drunk, became a whore for a night, karma shown you what hooking up at a bar can do, your husband knows you cheated. silence is a form of acceptance, so live with your guilt. he will live uncertain of your loyalty. good job
Commented Mar 26, 2021 10:26 by anonymous
“You are a dumb-ass if this truly happened to you. First to all the, I am who I am and I will do and go where i want women and girls. You can't, buddy system bitches. Men are weird, they are bad and evil they want to fuck your cunts..... So why you were in that situation... mistake. Why you went out with out your hubby to a bar? mistake. Not reporting the men that fucked you, Mistake. Not telling your husband... Mistake
Makes be feel sad for humanity. Why don't women know their place? ”
yeah women's "place" is not under your control stfu ass
Commented Apr 28, 2021 14:11 by anonymous
what's a married woman doing at a bar?
why didn't you tell him?
what if they gave you an std and you passed it on to him?
you're such an awful person
he deserves you tho because he obviously knew something was up and didn't leave
Commented Apr 28, 2021 14:16 by anonymous
Have you apologized to your rapist??
Commented May 25, 2021 15:41 by anonymous
You obviously willingly fucked those guys. What the fuck were you doing at the bar? You just didn't want your husband to see the baby who would look nothing like him, but the guy you fucked. You are a horrible person are making up this lie.
Commented May 25, 2021 21:09 by anonymous
What the fuck is wrong with you people in these comments? Telling her a liar, a whore, a slut, that she needs to apologize to her rapists. You guys are sick. These comments made me tear up. How can you just write these comments and go on with your day? How can y'all sleep at night? If what she is saying is true, she doesn't need to hear a bunch of ignorant men telling her that she is a liar and that she is a horrible person. Wow, fuck all of you. I genuinely could not give a fuck if y'all died minutes from now. Useless shits.
Commented May 25, 2021 21:12 by anonymous
What the fuck is wrong with you people in these comments? Calling her a liar, a whore, a slut; telling her that she needs to apologize to her rapists. You guys are sick. These comments made me tear up. How can you just write these comments and go on with your day? How can y'all sleep at night? If what she is saying is true, she doesn't need to hear a bunch of ignorant men telling her that she is a liar and that she is a horrible person. Wow, fuck all of you. I genuinely could not give a fuck if y'all died minutes from now. Worthless shits.
Commented Jun 13, 2021 20:02 by anonymous
“Riiiiight. You were grabbed by this guy, at a bar with a bunch of guy friends? Yeah-no. You fucked ypur guy friends after drinking and doing some X or other drug, and fucked all of them, got pregnant, and decided you'd write this BS "confession" that I'm sure you left open where your husband would "accidentally" come accross it-thereby looking like the poor victim instead if the whore ypu are. My guess is you fucked a bunch of black guys, and you KNEW it was a black baby. Lol @ you "organized crime" excuse. They don't rape women, dumbass-they sell drugs, and assault those who don't pay debts.
I hope your poor husband sees MY post, and drops your cheating slut ass.
There was NO rape-only you, wilfully engaging in a nigger gang-bang, got knocked-up, probably contracted an STD that you have now given your husband, and you knew he'd dump your whore ass when he saw your black baby.
As Paul Harvey would say...
Now you know....the REST of the story... Good Day!”
I second this.
No man would allow his wife to go to a bar with “male friends”. That’s bullshit. Just as no woman would allow her husband to go to a bar with female friends (whether they’re bugs friends or your friends, makes no difference). You got fucked and knocked up and can’t own it like you should.
Commented Jun 13, 2021 20:04 by anonymous
“Come clean, you willingly fucked those guys and got knocked up. It's the only way it makes any sense to not tell him ”
This.
This all the way.
I’m just upset I was guy #3.
Commented Aug 21, 2021 21:31 by anonymous
Its your fault whore. Married but went out to a bar. You wanted it and youre a whore.
Commented Aug 25, 2021 01:41 by anonymous
“You will never be able to move on past this incident if you do not tell your husband. So tell him. You are stuck where you are because of this withhold. Withholding only drags on your relationship, in a marriage.
Time to 'fess up and get on with your life.
By the way, I am writing this for anyone who might read it, because I am not convinced your OP is true
”
Lol hellooo! Anybody home? Lol
You know she went n got very very volunteering n willingly gangbanged right?
And that she found it hard to tell the hubby he got some black kids on the way so she went ahead aborted lil LeBron n wrote this confession n left it open on the family computer "accidentally" so the cuck hubby can see it and feel better about the abortion without leaving her broke drunkass
Commented Aug 25, 2021 01:47 by anonymous
“You're a lunatic. ”
We are what We are... This person's a (lunatic) for speaking facts.
You're a horny n thirsty white knight cuck who lves long walks on the beach, enjoys kissing n eating creampies during late night 5 hour gangbangs like the one above. But you don't see the lunatic judging you for your obsession with black dudes creampies. Be nice!
Commented Aug 25, 2021 01:52 by anonymous
“You are a dumb-ass if this truly happened to you. First to all the, I am who I am and I will do and go where i want women and girls. You can't, buddy system bitches. Men are weird, they are bad and evil they want to fuck your cunts..... So why you were in that situation... mistake. Why you went out with out your hubby to a bar? mistake. Not reporting the men that fucked you, Mistake. Not telling your husband... Mistake
Makes be feel sad for humanity. Why don't women know their place? ”
Oh she knew her place well. Left hubby at home, bought the girls a couple rounds of drinks to mind their business and met the 2 black dudes behind the bar where she wore their dicks down, after a buncha freaky fuckin and buncha orgasms she lit a cigarette n went home with minor rug burns n stiff like that. What a sexy n horny gal, love me a nympho . yummy
Commented Oct 13, 2021 16:31 by anonymous
when it comes down to it, it dont matter if you embolden others to rape or blah blah blah what matters is YOUR life. YOUR family, just get him alone. maybe with a therapist and tell him what happpened- sure itll be bad month but you can worth through it and just trust your partner.... life too short to worry about the drama and not having told him. always wandering about it- just get it out and if hes a real man he will be angry and hurt and devastated but he will also accept it and just embrace you
Commented Nov 18, 2021 11:37 by anonymous
“Riiiiight. You were grabbed by this guy, at a bar with a bunch of guy friends? Yeah-no. You fucked ypur guy friends after drinking and doing some X or other drug, and fucked all of them, got pregnant, and decided you'd write this BS "confession" that I'm sure you left open where your husband would "accidentally" come accross it-thereby looking like the poor victim instead if the whore ypu are. My guess is you fucked a bunch of black guys, and you KNEW it was a black baby. Lol @ you "organized crime" excuse. They don't rape women, dumbass-they sell drugs, and assault those who don't pay debts.
I hope your poor husband sees MY post, and drops your cheating slut ass.
There was NO rape-only you, wilfully engaging in a nigger gang-bang, got knocked-up, probably contracted an STD that you have now given your husband, and you knew he'd dump your whore ass when he saw your black baby.
As Paul Harvey would say...
Now you know....the REST of the story... Good Day!”
'at a bar with a bunch of guy friends' Where does it say that in her post? You've jumped to so many conclusions that are completely unfounded and have said horrible things to someones you've never met. You've conjured up a potential (though highly unlikely) situtation that may have occurred and, without anything to suggest that the theory is anything other than your overactive imagination, you post quite possibly the most cruel comment I have ever read.
Commented Dec 14, 2021 12:01 by anonymous
“You're a lunatic. ”
More than 60% of the time they’re laying. She probably did whore around and got pregnant it wouldn’t the first time. She’ll pay for the murder of that child and have no sex with another man. Hell is waiting for her and you
Commented Dec 14, 2021 12:24 by anonymous
“yeah women's "place" is not under your control stfu ass”
It certainly is. All this empowering of women has led to a decline in society. Target are the weaker sex and this post proves it.
Commented Dec 24, 2021 16:20 by anonymous
Just tell him. It's clearly bothering him and he probably thinks you cheated on him.
Commented Jan 21, 2022 02:22 by anonymous
Married but at a bar. It wasnt rape you just regret cheating you whore.
Commented Feb 6, 2022 23:38 by anonymous
If you're being honest and you were truly raped you need to tell your husband. It's not fair to let him think you killed his child, he might still be a little mad but I guarantee it will take the edge off of how he feels about it. It might even help your marriage and stop the arguing.
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Commented Jun 6, 2022 11:36 by anonymous
Girl, they weren't "organized criminals" they were 3 rapists that found each other at a bar or online forum and made shitty rape plans what the fuck does having your picture let them do? Voodoo? You should have instantly gone to the police, they only made those threats because they figured it would work so they didn't have to be careful and use protection. You really should tell your husband at this point. You have no clue what it may have done to him emotionally and psychologically all these years, people are so bad when it comes to trying to figure out how things will affect others.
Commented Nov 30, 2022 11:23 by anonymous
I am sorry for what you experienced.
Was there some reason that you could not have passed the baby off as your husband's? Did you see the races of the men?
I think, even in the worst possible case (baby doesn't look at all like your husband), a husband who truly loves you would step up and raise your child as his own.
(There is of course nothing wrong with choosing abortion. It is your choice to make. I just wouldn't want fear of losing your husband's love to ever be a factor in such a decision.)
Commented Dec 6, 2022 02:11 by anonymous
Good you deserved it.
Commented Feb 16, 2023 20:41 by anonymous
A friend of mine wife got raped and she didn’t tell anyone but one of her friends , her friend told her husband , she didn’t know if she was pregnant or not , her husband was so turned on about it he told me he wished they made a video he could watch , found out it was an old man that lived in the apartment building , he was back and 70 years old ,,he wife didn’t want to report it , the old man just smiles and waves when my friend sees him
Commented Feb 16, 2023 20:45 by anonymous
I found out my wife was raped in the back seat in a parking garage she didn’t report it she told her friend and her friend call police the police talked to my wife and my wife said she didn’t want to press charges, that he raped her repeatedly but will it was happening she began to like it , my wife is 56 the black rapist was in his thirties, my wife still don’t know I know , her friend told me ,
Commented Feb 20, 2023 09:55 by anonymous
This story is utter bullshit, nothing makes sense or adds up.
Commented Feb 20, 2023 10:04 by anonymous
Most women never tell or report a rape. Ive forced three women including my sister none ever told or reported it
Commented Feb 20, 2023 10:20 by anonymous
My wife left work, walked to her car in the parking lot and a guy came up behind her, put a hand over her mouth, pushed her against the opened car door I said don't fight it & you won't get hurt. She let him pull her pants down & fuck her from behind. She was fertile at 28. No idea who he was just that he was a black man. We did not report it but had her checked for disease. She was pregnant & we have a black child. Long time later I asked if she had an orgasm during the rape & she said she did.
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Commented May 4, 2023 12:35 by anonymous
“My wife left work, walked to her car in the parking lot and a guy came up behind her, put a hand over her mouth, pushed her against the opened car door I said don't fight it & you won't get hurt. She let him pull her pants down & fuck her from behind. She was fertile at 28. No idea who he was just that he was a black man. We did not report it but had her checked for disease. She was pregnant & we have a black child. Long time later I asked if she had an orgasm during the rape & she said she did. ”
How many more times did he nail her??