I’ll try and sum this up. I was dating a woman and after 5 years we decided to get married we did the whole ceremony and invited current friends. 1 year later I fell out of love it was hard for both of us but ultimately I felt like I was cheating her out of real happiness by staying with her. Fast forward 6 years I have 2 children different friends and a new career no one knows anything about my marriage and I awkwardly avoid anything regarding it. Not to mention I have constant guilt for getting married/divorced to the extent that I have severe anxiety when I think about marriage with my current partner. I don’t know what to too my boss asked me the other day what I was going to say to my children when they ask why I’m not married. I don’t know what to do at this point a part of me want to just get married to her out of obligation to my children, to be honest I don’t think I’ll ever leave her but I have a sour taste when marriage is involved.