I’m sorry for being a piece of shit .. I wish I was never born. I wish I was never given this too good of a family . I wish i was just dead. I don’t deserve this life . I’m 23 and I feel that my life has just be a total waste . I have no more friends . Everybody hates me . My best friend is leaving . And the girl that I thought liked me was just leading me on. I lost all of my hope and dreams . I hate me . I hate how easy I can smile .. I hate myself .. I’m tired of this fucking life and how miserable it is . Everybody around me is getting their careers and getting married and being happy ... and I’m just here because I couldn’t afford college .. I lose my jobs because I feel it’s a dead end job. I lost all my goals . I don’t have any dreams anymore . I just want to give up and not be a burden to my parents anymore . Maybe if I’m gone the world is a better place ...

I want to grab my moms prescription medicine and just chug it with vodka . I want to just end it ...