First of, I’m gender-fluid. That basically means my gender changes. Like one day I’m a girl, one day I’m a boy, and one day I might be neither.

I came out last year, and everyone has been super supportive of me. The accidentally use my dead name once in a while and are super apologetic about it. They are pretty good with pronouns.

The only person who has issues with it is my dad, but he’s getting better.

A few days ago I identified as a male, but we were visiting my grandmother and I was misgendered and dead named a lot.
I feel so shitty about myself, because I had short hair and a binder on at least hopping strangers would think I was a boy to no avail.

Since then, I’ve been feeling insecure about how I identify when I was a boy. But tonight I used men’s shampoo for the first time and felt at peace. I know it’s just shampoo and I shouldn’t have so many feelings attached to it, but I felt like a real boy for a moment. I hope someday I can have boy days and get that feeling again.