I've had trust issues for as long as I can remember. My initial thought on meeting somebody is how they are probably plotting against me or will eventually try to hurt me. I suspect my family, or possibly outside parties, are spying on me and watching all that I do. I know it sounds stupid and ridiculous, but I've had many times where this was the case.

Many of my friends I've had in the past ended up betraying me. I don't have many friends due to my trust issues, and I never trust any of my friends and consistently make backup plans for if someone tries to one-up me. I never show that I suspect anything to anyone, either, despite always thinking they know everything about everything, or that they will eventually try to use whatever I say against me.

I don't even trust posting this on here. It leaves a record, and I'm certain someone is watching, reading this as I type it, especially after I post it. It'll be used against me for whatever thing they want to falsely accuse me for just for the sake of doing it. I know it, I know I'm being watched. I'd ask for some help or insight, but I would probably not trust anyone anyways.