I told her that I want to take things easy now on. Like I will study less because it cause me stress, then depressed. Less study mean I will not getting A, maybe just pass. After one week, she remind me that she dont want me to pass only, she want me to get A, I'm back with my depression. I got depress because I dont fulfill her wish, she's the grow me up, use all her save to send me to college, work 24/7 to support me. I think if I'm not exist, I will just drop her responsibilities and be happier. Goodbye mom, and I hope you will be happier after I'm gone.. sometimes, sacrifice is needed for something better