TW: MENTAL HEALTH, EATING DISORDER, WEIGHT LOSS

TLDR

Sorry for the long and possibly confusing post.

I have a therapist, don't recommend therapy to me.

I'm pretty sure I have an eating disorder. Last school year I didn't have a lunch because of my language course and a program that is 2 periods. It was miserable in the beginning I wasn't used to it. Eventually I wasn't eating much for breakfast. Didn't wat during the day either. I wasn't drinking either. Then I would binge when I got home. Also I'd like to add that my dad constantly fat shamed me.

The school year progressed and it just got worse. By the end I wasn't eating breakfast, wasn't eating or drinking during the day, and was eating a meal and a snack a day. Well something happened right before school ended and it caused a giant mental breakdown/depressive episode. I was barely eating, the thought of food was making me nauseous, couldn't even eat a full meal.

This obviously made me loose weight. This whole time my parents specifically my mom has been praising me. I dropped sizes in pants, was eating maybe a meal a day.

Well I mentioned it to one of my therapist and she knew I had an eating disorder long before I knew. She would always ask what I ate and stuff like that.
Fast forward a bit and I can barely eat a full meal anymore. And I can go most of the day on a snack or something. Today I mentioned that my eating disorder was getting worse. And she was completely different and said that it was good to portion my food. And maybe I can try different foods.

One last thing. For this upcoming school year I wanted a lunch. (Before my eating disorder was addicting). Well I got my lunch but then I wanted to keep my language class because I wanted to restrict myself again.

I also think I have some other stuff going on. Specifically ADHD, anxiety, depression and dyslexia. I will very briefly go into them. Ever since I was 12 I was very adamant that I had ADHD. I've mentioned it to many people and they either ignore it or come up with some plan that never works. I have mentioned it to my mom and she doesn't want to get me tested. I also think I have anxiety, I'm always anxious about something, stressing over little things. I avoid places that have big groups of people. I'm also just now realizing that I may have depression. I'm not really sad but I'm not happy, I'm just kinda there. I don't do much. I spent 90% of my summer in bed watching tiktok. And lastly I strongly believe I have dyslexia. I wasn't taught how to read until I was 8-9. Even now I'm below where I'm supposed to be. I have a hard time reading, writing and spelling. When I read something I will start at the bottom and then go up and i don't realize I'm doing it. I haven't been tested for any of this stuff but I truly think I have them.

I need help and people around me are ignoring me. I don't know what to do. More of a rant then anything but I would appreciate if anyone has advice.