I known this girl for about 6 months of my life. She's in prison right now and the last time I saw her was when the cops raided my car.

I remember first meeting her she was awkwardly shy but in a good way. We were 2 complete opposites and I didn't see us ever hanging out. I was a "young upcoming professional" and she was a drug dealer and a user. I remember acting like I was better than her and it's funny how we got closer.

We message and write each other. The last letter I sent her, I slowly started to write my feelings, usually I keep my feelings away because I am afriad of being hurt but I don't care I need to know or else I'll regret it. I think this is love. I want to know about her family, her dreams and what she's doing. I rarely think about sex but I think about her touch, her eyes , her smile and her laugh. She's done so much for me even if it's little it means a lot to me.

I want this woman in my life. She knows what I've been through and I know what she's been through. We've been through a lot together. I don't know if she feels the same way. She could be lying to me but I'd rather be heartbroken than to never find out. If she feels the same way, then she is my first love because I've never had love. Women will flirt with me and try to seduce me but I don't really care about that. I can get any girl but I choose not too because you're one of a kind.

I wish I could tell you this but I can only show you it through my actions. I don't want to drive you away. Since that day I lost you I tried to deny my feelings for you but now I accept it. In waiting for your letter. If you ride for me I'll ride for you.