I never tell anyone how far that goes for me though. A decent sized twitch streamer was who gave me these ideals a few years back, and while I don’t think it’s a good idea to base your own beliefs off of those of an Internet personality, it really resonated with me. I hate people that justify bad decisions on the sole basis that “that’s the kind of person they are”, even though that’s my own rhetoric. I see myself as a huge hypocrite because it’s my own personal mindset that has pushed me into almost all of the decisions I’ve made. I don’t get peer pressured and I have no problem sticking to a hard no stance on the things I disagree with, this has led me to justifying addiction and treating some people pretty badly. But everything bad that I do is okay because It’s affecting me and that’s my choice. Whenever I see other people do the same thing I do I try to pull them out of whatever bad decisions they’re making because I don’t want to see them take it too far and end up using this mentality to justify bad things they do, while I think personal agency is the most important thing in my life I want better for everyone else. I want other people to worry about what other people think of them because if they don’t it might lead to a heavily self destructive lifestyle.

Sorry for the wall of text but I guess what this is leading up to is; should I change my beliefs or should I just come to terms with being a person I don’t want others to exemplify?