I’m on mobile, I don’t care to correct my grammar yadda yadda TLDR at the bottom


Little bit of a back story cause I guess it’s necessary I remember in like fifth grade, I was friends with 2 other girls and we always passed notes in class about boys and girly stuff like that and I remember our teacher was a CUNT she would scream at us,not let us use the restroom which led to me getting a uti and I remember this one time we had to write an essay, there was a problem with mine or something and my dad told me to tell the teacher if there were any problems to give him a call and when she was going over my essay with me she was being her lovely self saying “this is absolute garbage and if wondered if my parents were even fucking literate,how could they let me write something so horrible and I freaked out which caused me to have a panic attacked and started crying (I’ve never been good with being yelled at or with authority) and stormed out of the classroom straight to the principles off and told her everything the teacher did and I was the one who got in trouble and they never contacted my dad, so a couple of days go by and my 10 year old self was still Furious at this teacher and I was passing notes that basically said that she should die or that I wanted her dead and drew little doodles of her dying in different ways to the other 2 girls and I guess she found the notes and we all got suspended for a day which I feel kinda bad for since it was mostly me being a psychopath but w.e but anyways I’ve never told anyone this because I don’t want them to think I’m crazy or look at me different. Like what ten year old wants someone dead in such violent ways and also I don’t think anyone would believe me because in my friend group I’m basically the hufflepuff, mom friend who is “wholesome” and the voice of reason in disputes
TLDR: my 5th grade teacher was a bitch and I fantasized about killing her when I was 10 years old and have never told anyone to this day