I shouldn't feel like this. My life can be pretty shit sometimes, but recently it's been getting better. I've gotten an amazing boyfriend, I'm almost done with my first semester in college, and I've made new friends and tried new things this year. But I'm still really sad. I don't know why. I haven't been motivated to do basically any of my school work, I feel so down and sad all the time, I don't want to be here and I feel like I'm wrong for saying that. But things are going so good, and I'm so fucking scared. That probably doesn't even make sense, but I just want my life to continue down this path but I know it won't. I'm scared, I'm sad, I'm worried, and I'm tired