I have a group of friends--cosplay friends on a discord server.
I made this discord server and suddenly everyone but one person distance themselves from me whenever I'm online. I either get ignored, yelled at, or a quick conversation (as in they try to get it over with as soon as possible).
The one person who hasn't done this--asked me what was going on and if I even wanted to hang out with them and the others because I haven't shown up to two events... fucking two. Its not like its five.
One was this person's graduation for college. I didn't want to go because it was super long and there was no telling how long we were going to be there--and I didn't want to be a burden because at the time I couldn't drive because I didn't have my license yet.
The second one was a New Years/Xmas party another friend of mine was having, but it just so happened to be on the same day as a band event (for those who graduated) and I had a birthday party to attend to--it was my cousin's.
Also before the party I was getting seriously beaten down by yet another one of my friends saying a lot of mean things to me--very rude things when all I wanted was a yes or no answer.
I wanted to know if they hated me or not because they have been rather rude to me ever since I met them... I thought that was just them messing around and I didn't really think anything of it until it gotten worse. I understand they were rather offended--but I had to know. Then they went of a major rant on my "deeds" when all I try to do is help everyone in the group. I ask for nothing in return and I even give them gifts for their birthdays. I'm starting to think they don't really like them all that much...
Anyway, so I didn't really feel welcomed at the party because of that so I went to band instead because not only that--but I was afraid I wouldn't see my best friend (in band) anymore after she graduated. She has her own life and goals, so I was worried that I wouldn't see her ever again.
The next day I went to my cousin's birthday party, her sister was also in the group chat I created. I was for sure she was coming because--its her sister. Her father even texted her and called her to tell her about it. She found out later and got mad me (the sister) she shouted at me telling me I should have told her. Then my older sister texted her shaming her for not showing up when I begged my sister not to because it would just make things worse--but she did anyway.
So then she yelled at me for that saying it was my fault--I was a bad person and I should have told her who's birthday it was. I told the one friend (that doesn't hate me) who's party I was going to, and who's sister it was. I was sure she would have told the rest of our friends what was going on. She did but didn't mention any names--so I found out only a few weeks ago...
After that I have been seen in a bad light. My friends would talk badly about me behind my back--even my own cousin. The new member was doubting me and didn't like me very much because of what they were saying.
Before all of this happened I made a rule, and a vow that my chat group would be a place that anyone can turn to--to get away from the stress in the real world. If they had a problem here with someone on the server they should go to the source of that problem and talk it out.
I always believed that and done it myself... now... they don't even honor that. I think they just want to get rid of me and it hurts thinking like that. I want to say something so badly and tell them off, but at the same time I know that won't do any good and I wish the one friend that believed in me would stick up for me because they made a new server and that's the place they are talking trash about me.
Its been going on for months now, and the reason they are doing it is because they are hurt? (So my friend said) hurt over what? I told them my reasons, they have no reason to be hurt. I gave them my love and support and advice and this is what I get in return.
I wish they would just talk to me instead of avoiding me like the plague. I'm doubting everyone around me--even the one friend that I have--wondering if she even believes in me...
I truly think I'm alone now and I wonder--were they even my friends?
I don't know what to do...