I keep thinking about killing myself. Dont get me wrong, I'm working on my mental health but I still have thoughts of how it would look. I saw one of those side rails on the road, and just imagined sticking my head out the window and ramming it into the rail and water my head fall off. Or me shattering a car window and jumping into the road. I have auditory hallucinations (not often) and sometimes visual, idk why but I feel like I should add that. I've gone to therapy. I've been to a mental hospital (for other reasons) and idk what to do at this point (I'm definitely not doing medication). I know I need help and I know I need to get better but I dont know how to fix these specific things. Everything else I can deal with, but idk how to stop my thoughts bc I dont expect them, and the hallucinations aren't often whatsoever. Help?