At my high school graduation when I was taking pictures in my tux with my best friends and the teachers who made a huge impact on my life, I didn't know what to do so I just stood there with my hands together in front of me instead of putting our arms around each other. I look really stupid and awkward just standing there beside people, while everyone else had their arms around each other in their photos and looked happy.

Also, at my first year at a new university in a city where I didn't know anybody, I performed at a coffee shop with three others (two singers, one guitar, I was piano). It was a great memory as I was just starting to make friends. When we took pictures, we took silly ones and one nice one. The silly ones were find, but in the nice one all three were close with their arms around each other while I had my hand on the upper back of the girl I was beside (I was on the edge of the photo) but I was standing with a bit of a gap in between us. The gap stands out like a fucking sore thumb.

Whenever I look back on any of those photos I wish I wasn't so fucking awkward. Those were supposed to be great photos that I'd keep for a lifetime and should bring me nostalgia/happiness when I look at them but instead I cringe every time I look at them and wish I wasn't so fucking awkward.

I know there's nothing I can do about this and I just have to move on, but I needed to get this off my chest.

I'm just wondering if I should just delete them so I don't have to cringe anymore...