I hate the uncertainty that comes with life all through school I was bullied I never had any real friends just people that thought poorly of me and judged me in elementary and middle school bullied for my weight in high school bullied for my sexuality. I’m too scarred to attempt another friendship trying to make a friend tbh. I just want this to be over with already tbh. I don’t even know if I will ever date I want the uncertainty to be over I don’t care anymore I wish I could spend my time with robots or something humanoids life life like real humans that will treat me nice I’m sick of encountering shitty people not worth my time. Other than my family I’m constantly fearful of meeting another asshole that will attract negativity in my life. I’m still trying to piece my life back together from the mental breakdowns I had my senior year of high school where I had to be hospitalized and developed 4 mental illness I runs in my family.