its been a few days and i live alone and ive reached out to basically all my friends adn the just left me on read, which is fine and all but it is the type of thing that makes me start thinking that everyone hates me and that im ugly and stupid and a bad person and etc. The worst part of those feelings, I think, is this sense that i have no way to express them, like they're just building and i cant do anything; i start getting really claustrophobic *and* agoraphobic on top of self hating . so id like to talk to someone or have them talk to me, whichever is less of a chore them. but importantly, i dont want like a pity conversation. id just feel humiliated from that, basically would confirm all my anxieties. i want someone to talk to me because they think i am a person who is worth talking to. i dunno, maybe thats dumb; i dont even know who i am