i made a part one but you don't really need to read it to understand this.

i hate myself because i betrayed someone that i cared about because i believed i could help the problem and make everyone happy and now that person ( the one i betrayed) knows and they hate me and i tried i literally begged for forgiveness and they just glared at me and i explained why i did it and they just turn away...I AM NOT BLAMING THEM I KNOW THIS IS MY FAULT

i hate myself because should have killed myself when i had the chance, and i let my emotions get in the way and everything would have been better.

i hate myself for the way that i look and i always just have and i know in the future its just going to get worse.

i hate myself

\*BIG ONE\*

i desperately want to be loved and that is what i constantly think about but i don't think that it is ever going to happen, i am scared of people touching me ( part 1) and i am scared of ever having sex with someone that i am in love with, what if i mess up? what if im not good? what if they leave me ? what if they have someone better? and i just cant get over that and i don't think that im attractive enough to be loved or anything like that

i just hate everything about myself and i over think things and i push myself to hard to make other people happy to the point that i am physically broken because of it, and it just never seems to be enough and im just tiered of trying and it just gets to much and then when i find someone who lets me take a breath i just think that they will leave me to.

my friends hate me , my family hates me, god hates me , and i hate myself

I DONT WANT PITTY

and all i want is someone to hold me tell me im enough, kiss me and tell me its okay.

that's it for part two i guess

thank you

\-ZVP